I read this post this week and it really resonated with me…
Becoming a mum was always something I wanted so badly but, in many ways, I don’t think I was in any way prepared for the change it would bring in my own heart and life.
Unprepared for the overwhelming love and protection for a little life.
Unprepared for the fear that would accompany the thoughts of their future and safety.
Unprepared for the volume and intensity of the emotions.
Unprepared for the pride I would feel in their achievements, big and small.
Unprepared for the exposure of my heart and how at times, selfish and self serving I am.
Unprepared for the fact that I would at times want to scream and run and hide.
Unprepared for the effort and energy involved in shaping little hearts.
My heart has undoubtably changed. For the better. They have made me a better person.
I have often fought the transitions each season, age and stage brings; wanting to remain in the familiarity and safety of the one left behind. I have wrestled with failure, regret and disappointment in my own heart over and over again and, no doubt, these will continue to mar my journey.
But I am still learning to embrace the changes. To remember that what worked yesterday may not work today.
To grow. To change as they change.
To grow. To change as they change.
These are little lives we shape. Little hearts that need nurtured.
It seems messy sometimes and many mistakes will be made along the way.
But they forgive. Forgive generously…and I need to learn from them too.
Thank you for this incredible post, mama!!! I love your blog so much!!!
Love and light,
Jessica
Thanks so much! 🙂
this really resonated with me. i'm a new momma to a one month old, and i was not at all prepared for all the changes that have happened even in that short of time. people tell you what to expect, but it's just not real until it happens!